is that a light at the end of the tunnel?

i'm beginning to think i'm seeing a light at the end of the tunnel..... well, work wise anyway. the next three weeks are going to be a big push to get the finalized pieces done for two clients then on march 19th i officially have NOTHING to do!! it's going to be glorious and i cannot wait! and to celebrate, i'm going to napa with sarah to detox from the last couple of months. for the moment i'm living in the dream of no work for now. all the while knowing in the back of my head that by that time, they'll find something new for me to do. but for now, the sweet blissful thought of nothingness fills my head :0)

the other shard of light beyond is coming from the fact that soon i'll know exactly what the prognosis on the knee will be and what impact that will have on my upcoming training schedule. CB and i have no agreed that cal half will not be my A race and is in fact no longer even on the calendar. vineman is the next prize and i want to kill it from my last year's results. i'm keepin my fingers crossed that tonight's MRI will show that some tendons were torn and not the miniscus (no clue how to spell that btw). tomorrow will tell all and at least i'll have an answer.

the song that's been floating through my head lately which somewhat reflects my mood lately is be ok by ingrid michaelson. i like the song though it doesn't completely fit my picture at the moment......
I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today
I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today

I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today
I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today

CHORUS:
Open me up and you will see
I'm a gallery of broken hearts
I'm beyond repair, let me be
And give me back my broken parts

I just want to know today, know today, know today
I just want to know something today
I just want to know today, know today, know today
Know that maybe I will be ok

CHORUS

Just give me back my pieces
Just give them back to me please
Just give me back my pieces
And let me hold my broken parts

I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today
I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today

I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today
I just want to know today, know today, know today
Know that maybe I will be ok

guess i've just been searching for something lately thought i don't know what exactly and feeling a little lost in the chaos of work and the broken pieces of my knee. it'll all be mended and better soon.....just keepin the vision of better days ahead

~danban