no right way to go

have you ever been in a situation where you know that no matter what you do, you'll most likely be completely wrong?! it feels a little out of control and you attempt to help the situation by suggesting a plan of action only to silence the whole room? the crazy thing is that there is no right or wrong answer and the situation itself is just messed up but it feels like something needs to be done though there's nothing left to do or say. silence isn't quite right so of course the next plan of action has to be made but for every plan there are thousands of consequences most of which aren't obvious or clear. feeling lost like this is just frustrating and exhausting.

talking to others not in the situation is hard too cause it seems at this point they're tired of hearing it so there's no one to call. the one person to call is out of the country so continuing on aimlessly is about all that can be done. it's very disheartening to be in this position and i want so badly to make it better but know i can't. best i can do is just point my head to the heavens and scream in frustration, put my head back down, clear it the best i can, and move on to the next day.

i know that this too shall pass and that 2011 will be easier and better than 2010. just hard to move past this feeling with no relief in sight just yet. i'm continuing to look forward to Tahoe, Bloomington, Vegas, and wherever else this new year will take me knowing that the memories and experiences that i have will continue to lift my spirits and prove that in 2011 life is getting better.

cheers,

danban