well, that seems counter intuitive

i've been in PT for just over a month now and am frankly disappointed.  i'm doing the same stretches every day (no, not exercises but stretches).  i am willing to put in the time and do what i'm told; however, i'm not thrilled with the results or the re-eval i had on wednesday.  i was told that since they don't know what is causing my flare ups that i should stop exercising at all.  no long dog walks (if dog walks at all), no boxing, no hiking, no nothing.  ummmmmm, excuse me??  how am i supposed to get and stay healthy if i am not allowed to do any exercise at all??  plus you people told me that i would see improvements within the first three weeks and i'm still not seeing much of anything and you know that yet still put me in phase 2 with NO EXERCISE!!  WTF PEOPLE?!?!?!

to say i'm frustrated is an understatement to say the least!  we've been better and better on the paleo diet and are even going to make our own coconut flower tortillas this weekend and yet the one thing i'm lacking at the moment is the very thing that i'm not supposed to do at all.  are you kidding me?!  how the hell am i supposed to get fit and trim for my wedding gown if i have to sit at home and try not to move.  this seems ridiculous to me.  up til now i've been willing to do the whole process just as they recommend but this seems out of logical explanation other than they can't figure out how to fix it so it must somehow be something i'm doing.  hey guess what people, maybe the results from the ER were actually not BS!  how bout that??

i won't lie, a hike is going to happen with the boys this weekend.  i need the fresh air and i need the exercise to not become a completely depressed disaster of a woman.  there are things i'm willing to change and accommodate but to tell me that i can't even walk the dogs is ludicrous.

thanks for listning to the rant and know that it's just frustration at the situation.  obviously i have no control over when my back is going to freak the hell out and that definitely contributes.  i wish there was a magic fix it but unfortunately there isn't.  at least the diet is going well and ryan got great news that his cholesterol and blood pressure are down :)  in other great news, i bought "the shoes" so the wedding stuff is still moving along!  there are obviously going to be good days and bad and the frustration just stems from more bad than good on the fitness front.  the rest of life keeps lifing and we're still relatively healthy and very happy people.  it will be a good weekend and i'm excited for the sunshine to share with my boys.

hope you have a good weekend too!
~danban