useless facts and little known info

inspired by katie b, here are a few things you may or may not have known about the danban:

1. i don't take compliments at all well. i somewhat enjoy hearing the niceties that people have to say but feel awkward about accepting compliments. i'm workin on it.......

2. i am an arachnophobic BIG time. i mean even the tiniest of spiders seriously freak me out!! the webs freak me out, the spiders themselves freak me out, and yes i know that daddy long legs aren't really spiders but they really freak me out too. so, if we're hanging out and there's a spider, YOU get to deal with it cause i'm gonna scream my head off and run for the nearest exit. hey, it's every man for himself!

3. when i'm really truly good and upset about something, the only way to pull me out of my funk is to watch the a&e version of Pride & Prejudice with Colin Firth as Darcy. 6 hours of that and i'm usually ok.

4. despite all the driving i do on a regular basis, i don't really like spending that much time in the car. don't get me wrong, i LOVE my car but being in traffic puts me in a bad mood. well, and the gas prices!

5. i am not at all good at talking about my feelings. it's been really easy to be emotionally guarded for a very long time yet little by little i may share a glimpse every now and again (here's your first glimpse).

6. i really really really really don't miss ice cream. no, i'm not lying!

7. green is my favorite color, sushi is my favorite food, chipotle is my favorite pepper, MINI is my favorite car, pajamas are my favorite clothes, flip flops are my favorite shoes, and hawaii is my favorite vacation destination.

8. i do not like conflict. i will avoid you if you anger me, i anger you, you annoy me, etc. though if you're up in my face about something, i will be blunt, honest, and a total bitch.

9. i love getting emails and voicemails and i'm terrible at returning them.

10. i love getting birthday wishes and presents and i'm terrible at remembering birthdays and even worse about sending stuff in the mail. 2 years later, sarah is still missing birthday presents and christmas presents - SORRY!!

11. i am terrible at recognizing when a guy is interested in me. i've been so used to just being "one of the guys" that is what i assume with all my guy friendships/acquaintances. it's always funny for my friends when some sort of situation occurs where a guy is interested and i had NO idea. at least i can amuse my friends!!

12. i miss a good 'ole fashioned thunder and lightning storm. i used to fall asleep in my bed in TX during a storm and listen to the rain on the roof. i miss those.

13. i am a Texan through and through. if you are not a Texan you cannot and will not understand what it means, but know this - we all have a brotherhood that is not easily broken and we band together like no one else. Texans making fun of Texans on the other hand is 100% acceptable. DON'T MESS WITH TEXAS!

14. i am a triathlete. i will wake up before the ass crack of dawn to work on my base. i will torture myself with 77 mile rides, 15 mile runs, and 2 mile swims just for the fun of it. no, i am not insane i am just motivated. yes, i like getting dirty and sweaty and i sincerely hope you wish to join me cause this is currently my main source of socialization sad as you may think it.

15. i do not have the time nor patience for idiots any longer. this includes the ignorant, the stupid, the fake, the insincere, the pains in the ass, and those who will not bother to get to know who i really am even though they expect me to bend over backwards for them.

16. i will give more than my all to you until you prove that you are one of #15 then all bets are off.

17. if you stop calling me back, stop emailing me back, do not show to hang out, do not show any interest in getting together despite occasional mutterings that you do - i WILL stop any effort on my part. if i see no compromise or effort on your part, why should i bother?

18. i miss my friend tim a lot.

19. i love my brother a lot. he and i are very similar in a lot of ways and it is hilarious to most and scary to some. we have a lot of inside jokes and we have a similar sense of sarcasm and humor. if you don't like one of us, you probably won't like the other. he's been one constant in my life and a great motivator. with all his ridiculousness i love him.

20. i love my sisters and the fact that i'm getting to know them more and more. we didn't grow up together and didn't get to spend much time together but they are AWESOME and i'm excited what life has in store for us as family.

21. i love my family - the good, the bad, the ugly. for better or worse, they are my family and they are part of what makes me who i am today.

22. i am not comfortable with my weight at all. i grew up a skinny child, was overweight in highschool and into college, and still battle with image issues. i am not happy with the size of my bum or my man like legs. i am working on shrinking it all and becoming more comfortable in my own skin.

23. i get bitchy when i am hungry. it happens to my brother too! we call him the hungry princess cause you can tell the instant that he's gone too long without food. i have a bit of that yet not to that extreme and i'm learning that i need to make sure to have food around just in case ;0)

24. i love girls night. relaxing, eating, chatting, goofing off, sitting in the hot tub.....these are all necessities....drinks and/or clothing optional :0)

25. i love love love bubble baths! alone: glass of wine and a good book with my bubbles is all i need. not alone: well, trouble would be all i need :0)

26. i am quirky with food. i don't like eating it cause of the whole image thing and i have rules about eating it. for instance, if it's something bad for me, i'll only eat 4 or 7 max. also, i don't like my food to touch on my plate unless it goes together. what goes together usually only makes sense in my head. oh and yes, i still own divider plates!

27. i hate cauliflower with a passion. i see no value in it what so ever and feel that it can be removed from the face of this planet.

28. when i get good and frustrated or pissed about something i cry which makes me more mad or frustrated so i cry harder.

29. when i'm in physical pain, i giggle a lot. it absolutely cracks my doc up :0)

30. i am typically the person that people turn to/lean on when something goes topsy turvey in their lives. the terrible part is that i don't feel that i can do the same. guess that adds to the emotional rock i'm hiding under.

31. i am the worst speller on the face of the planet!! if it weren't for spell check, you wouldn't be able to read my dyslexic words :0)

32. i like a very eclectic range of music and i listen to all those different types when i'm going to sleep (including tool). no matter what the music is, it sends me into sleep. the funny thing is that i can't have it going all night though cause i'll wake up in the middle of the night with music on and it bugs me then. so i have to put on just one album at a time to go to sleep to.

33. i curse badly enough to make most sailors blush. i'm not sure where it came from or why yet the obscenities just flow from my mouth with ease. i feel bad about it sometimes and most times i just don't care :0)

34. i love love love love to read. my favorite author since jr high is dean koontz. i have all of his books and re-read them. i have basically a library at my home and i do re-read almost all of my books! one of my pet peeves is loaning out a book and never seeing it again. i haven't had as much time to read lately yet it is always a part of my life!

35. i am harder on myself than i should be. i am an expert at sledge hammering my head when i feel that i've let someone (including myself) down. i know this needs to change yet it's been difficult to let things go that i have typically smacked myself around for before.

36. i feel guilty eating anything. this goes especially in crowds or restraunts. it goes back to my whole self image thing. for some odd reason i've convinced myself that people who see me eat think "oh that's why she's heavy" and then i feel terrible. i'm working on eliminating this thought too.

37. i feel terrible for things that are typicall out of my control and end up worrying about those situations. this usually involves friends or family that are upset about something that i cannot change. i worry about these concerns of theirs and attempt to find a solution as best i can even though i typically don't have a way to help. i just want my friends and family to be happy!

38. i am actually a lot smarter than i think i am. sounds like an odd thing to say though it is the truth. i sometimes doubt my intelligence yet i am considered a genius at least by t :0)

39. the little things in life can give me the biggest thrills! for example, i was anticipating for WEEKS about a new duvet cover i purchased and was excited about just seeing it on my bed and in my room! i was so happy just on the thought of it for a month! i'm still very happy with it but who knew a duvet cover could deliver such a thrill!!

40. i have poems i've written starting back in college and i continue to write them yet no one has ever seen them.

41. i thoroughly believe i actually am a decent singer. no, i don't want to go on american idol but i do think that i have a good pair of pipes!

42. i have actually killed a cactus before because i am terrible at keeping plants alive (it died from not enough water). although i really do love plants and want to have lots of them around my house!! i'm working on keeping 4 alive at the moment :0)

43. i am addicted to the food network. it is the one channel that i could watch for hours and never get bored! i'll watch the most boring chef on the planet instead of watching a terrible sitcom cause i find it far far far more interesting than stupid comedy or useless drama.

44. i cannot stand drama queens and have made a concerted effort to remove them from my life entirely because they serve no purpose. i have been surrounded by lots of drama and i choose not to have that chaos in my life any longer.

45. i am a commitment-phobe who is learning new behaviors. i've had terrible relationships in the past and am not the best at trusting those of the opposite sex but i am definitely making strides to change that these days!

46. i don't really smell many things. i can smell some things sporadically, i can smell some things consistently (when i wash my hair, put on lotion, etc), and cannot smell much on a constant basis. most people don't know this and i pretend that i can smell cause those i've told usually forget and i have to repeat myself. i blame it on growing up near herford!!

47. the reason i eat in 4's and 7's is because they are my two favorite numbers. i also like 10 cause it was my soccer number for lots of years. so i tend to do things that i can count in those three numbers. i hate 6's and 8's and think they're unlucky!!

48. i absolutely cannot sleep in socks otherwise i burn up. it could be -40 degrees outside and all i have is socks on to keep me warm through the night and i'd still break out in a sweat. guess i'm a hot sleeper or at least t tells me so :0)

49. i hate hate hate hate to cry in front of others. it shows vulerability and weakness (or so i think) and i don't like people to think of me as either. i am used to being everyone else's stability. i also see crying as something that's very personal and private and not really shared with others. it's my burden whatever i'm crying about so i tend to do that alone.

50. i am 100% positive that no one who is reading this knew all of these things about me and that kind of saddens me.